This moment right here is what I want to last.
This moment when everything is so fresh and new...
when I don't care what he's thinking
or if he's telling me the truth
or what his password is
or how he spends his money
or if he'll call me
or if I'll get to spend time with him today.
When he still has absolutely no hold on me.
It's so tempting to keep it in this place,
to lift the walls up and not let him in.
Because THIS place is such a good, pleasant,
UN-painful place to be.
No expectations, not too much of myself on the line.
But is life really worth it if we only live to be pleasant?