Talk to the block!

iOS7 is finally here!

I know that makes me sound like a total nerd,
but I am actually excited about this.

Most of the past updates haven't really noticeably 
changed much.
This one, however, really changed a lot.
Things look much different,
and some things act much different.
Some functions were added that are handy,
and some were added that I have been 
waiting for a LONG time for...
like the ability to block unwanted callers and texters!
YESSSSSSS!!!!! *fist pump*

I immediately added a few people to that beautiful blocked list so 
that they can NEVER bother me again (hopefully).
To me, this was the best, most long-awaited feature.
Seriously iPhone, why did this take so long?
lurve you, xoxo v.


In which I admit that I had no idea what happy was a few months ago when I claimed my life was happy....

So, when I was reading and watching the things that I wrote and recorded over the summer, I saw myself thinking that I was so happy.  I thought I was finally moving on and I was free, free, freeeee! Weeeee! Footloose and fancy-free.  The thing is that, the older guy that I met up with?  Disaster (as you know). Being alone?  Nice, but not all it is cracked up to be.  Got boring fast.  I mean, I can be alone for a long time, but the thing is something else started to happen that I didn't expect.

I had to have a few interactions with Paul for various reasons, and as I did, things went very well.  I was hesitant to interact with him at first, because I had this preconceived notion of how I believed he would probably interact with me because of our past history.  But I was pleasantly surprised to find that he was nothing like that.  Not at all.  He was actually going out of his way to be as amazing as he could possibly be...and it was so nice.  I thought it would be a much longer time than it was, but it turns out, that it only took a few short months to convince this man that he did not want to live without me.  That the grass was not greener. That he was willing to change whatever needed to be changed in order to make things right.  Because honestly, the major complaints that I had for the last year or so of our relationship that led to our breakup and would cause the most arguments and unhappiness?  Completely an easily fix...he was just totally unwilling to do it. 

Well, all I can say is that after a few conversations, it was so nice to talk to him. Some texting back and forth...and it was like second nature.  I missed him.  And after just seeing the fiasco that I had seen?  Paul saying that he loved me and my girls and was willing to fix anything that needs fixing to stay in our lives was looking pretty good.

I know I said never, but I need to learn to not do that.

Well, it's been about  seven weeks at this point, and I have to say that I have never been happier.  Things have been the best that they have ever been in my life.  We're taking it slow and seeing how things go.  But for right now, I'm enjoying the good place where things are. 

(ignore the Christmas tree that fb stuck on the side there! lol)

lurve you, xoxo v.



“…I could have worried halfway through that song, that a lot of you didn’t care to hear that song. But that’s no way to play a song, is to worry whether someone likes it. And that’s no way to go on a date, is to worry if the person likes you and that’s no way to go living your life, worrying about the reception. You’ll let me know if you didn’t like that song, you’ll go to the message boards. Or maybe you didn’t like that song and you ended up liking the groove by the end. Or maybe you loved that song and I’m the worst data analyst of all time. But I think the most important thing is that you carry on with some sort of single-mindedness of just enjoying yourself and not breaking down every single moment and speaking to yourself in the voice of your biggest critic who doesn’t exist. And so that is how you are able, slowly, to peel back sort of these layers of worry that you yourself created, and just get a little more of this in your life. *starts dancing* Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter. You piss someone off; they’ll tell you. You know? Say the wrong thing; apologize. In the wrong place; turn around, come back. Doesn’t matter. Doesn’t matter. What matters is that you keep it all very light and be good to yourself and enjoy your life, enjoy it. You’re not gonna live for a billion years; stop building, and start living inside the structure that you’re building. Move in, move in! Move in to that castle you think you’re building up to the sky and stop sleeping in a teepee. Move on in. Move on in and have some good time in that body, have some good time in that mind that you’re slowly trying to develop into being something good. And it’s good, and just chill, and just enjoy yourself.”

~John Mayer

lurve you, xoxo v.

He so gets me....

lurve you, xoxo v.


lurve you, xoxo v.
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