Day 18

A picture of your biggest insecurity.

That's it.  There it is.
She doesn't get to come out and play very often,
so she'd better enjoy it.
I like to keep rejection locked up in the closet
as much as possible.

But here it is.
My biggest insecurity and stumbling block in life.

Every word I hear, action, non-action, relationship, gift, text message, etc
gets filtered through the filter of rejection.

Because of the past that I have survived,
shame and unworthiness is a major part of my makeup.
My go-to reaction in any situation is to feel
rejected in some form because of that unworthiness.
Deep down, I still carry that shame and unworthiness with me and it
has laid down deep roots.

Roots that I am diligently trying to chop up and destroy,
because I'm tired of feeling like this.
It still is what it is at this point though,

lurve you, xoxo v.


Allison said…
I think we all struggle with that in some form or another, so you're in good company. *sigh*

But I love you. And will never reject you. Soaps forever!