Sorry, we're closed.
I've contemplated doing this for several days now. The events of the last week have left me battle-weary in a way I don't think I've felt before. That, combined with the fact that I put the question box on the side of the page over there and wow, I had no idea the amount of negative, judgmental readers I have. That kind of stuff? Gets deleted. The same way any nasty, judgmental comments always have. I've always been able to tolerate it and take all the bullshit people have to say with a grain of salt, but I have suddenly and abruptly hit my limit.
Therefore, this concludes the question and answer portion of my life.
I have never written to be controversial. I have never written in order to get feedback. I write to purge my own soul and to get it out there. Better out than in. But what has happened, is that I have a few sweet and faithful readers who read because they care what I'm up to.... the rest of you are just like vultures. You are only here because you are nosy voyeurs who want to know what's going on, but don't want to contribute in any way whatsoever to my life...and I'm fed up with ME being the only one contributing to this relationship (as well as many other relationships that either I am choosing to change or the universe is changing for me).
I am tired of not being appreciated and tired of being treated as disposable by those who are supposed to love me. If there are only a few people on this earth that I can count on or that will be loyal to me, then I take myself back...ALL OF ME back and save it all for them. And for myself. You want me? Come find me. You want me in your life? Figure out a way to put me there. I'm not extending myself for anyone who doesn't extend for me. Not anymore. I'm spent.
I pray that the Lord heals this. I'm sure he will. Today, this is where I am. I'm done.