My day

Seriously, sometimes I really do think that I could tell my life's story in icons. I LOVE them! I could look through them for hours and hours. I finally quit putting new ones on my myspace page because if I put all of them on there that I liked my page would be a mile long. Some of them are sad, some inspiring and some just crack me up...like the one that says "Don't hit kids! No, seriously. They have guns now." lol so funny. So that sums up my evening...looking at icons and redoing my myspace page...fun huh? I found the perfect background for me right now. I have been in a semi-depressed, sultry, needing some love, attention and some good booty mood. I had been thinking about one of my friends pages whose caption was "looking for my butterflies"...because I'm feeling that way alot lately. So anyways, I had a vision in my mind of something deep red/black/some kind of dark and sultry background...and I found one right away...and it has a butterfly in the background...perfect! And I found a song to fit my mood right away too....I love it when the universe aligns for me like that. lol Seriously...isn't it funny how little things like that can make our day?

Other than that nothing big happened today....I'm still fighting a cold. We took the girls ice skating and then went to goodwill to browse for crap we don't need. I watched a woman make off with a beautiful Tiffany-style lamp with a gorgeous blue shade for FIVE DOLLARS!!! Bitch! Sorry, did I say that out loud? I was totally hating on her. I never find anything that good at Goodwill. Scott can find something everytime we go. He's going crazy not working and being in a stressful house and in the final stages of quitting smoking, so he needs LOTS of things to tinker with. He needs to fix things...get his hands dirty...be a man. Sometimes I amuse myself the way I get turned on by watching him do things like that. I don't think there's anything he can't fix...he just dives in and strips things apart, moves this, twists that, puts it back together and whuddoyouknow....it's fixed! The way he so confidently moves his hands and knows just where and what to touch....that's my entertainment for the evening... I just wish he'd take the time to tinker with me like that more often! *SIGH*


We're off to see the blizzard 2007 edition

I'M SO SICK OF SNOW!!! I can never get in OR out of my driveway, I slide through every stop sign I come to, the stairs to my deck are completely buried and the kids are always home from school!!! Oh, and the cold CRACKED the bumper of my van in two! BLAH!!! I thought we were past the worst of it but now it's coming down like crazy again! That stupid groundhog didn't know what he was talking about!

Girl interrupted

Am I the only one so saddened by Britney's behavior lately? Now last night she shaved her head bald??? It's almost like I can feel her sadness coming through every picture. I really pray for her...she has so much potential and can't let a no-good man destroy her spirit. C'MON GIRL!!! RENEW YOUR SPIRIT!!! WHEN TIMES GET TOUGH STRONG WOMEN GET BOLD, NOT BALD!!!


Late valentine

When yesterday didn't go anything like I was hoping for I have to admit I was feeling a little sorry for myself and decided that I wasn't going to write this blog since I know Scott won't read it anyways. Well, I decided that I don't care if he ever reads it or not...I'm going to write it anyways. Maybe not as long and involved as I first thought, but at least something written as an ode to my valentine. Not just my valentine, but my forever valentine. The one that I will wake up to every day for the rest of our lives. The one who's hand reaches for mine under the covers at night. The one I can spend countless and endless hours with laying in bed watching tv. The man who's voice I can't wait to hear on the other end of the phone. I love finding little poems from you in my messages or on my desk. I may not always love every thing you do or say, but I always love you. I may hate fighting with you but there's no one on this earth that I'd rather fight with....because I know that you're as committed as I am to making our lives better and growing and learning from things. I love when you pray with me. I love when you take our family to church and in the midst of worshipping you have one hand raised to God and one hand reaching to hold mine. You teach me so many things and I hope you can learn from me too. I love you to the stars and back and I don't mind every new day that comes now because I know I'm with you. When I said my vows to you I meant every single word that I said and so I'm going to copy them on here as a reminder to us both...

Scott to Veronica:

"Veronica, I love you. Today is a very special day. Long ago you were just a dream and a prayer. This day is like a dream come true... the Lord himself has answered that prayer. I thank Jesus for the honor of going through life with you. Thank you for being what you are to me. With our future as bright as the promises of God, I will care for you, honor you and protect you. I lay down my life for you, Veronica, my friend and my love."

Veronica to Scott:

"Scott, I dreamed about you for so many years wondering where you were and if I'd ever see you again...and here you are. To marry the person you have set your heart upon from the very beginning is rare and I'm so grateful for the gift from God that is you. I choose you to be my friend, my lover, the father of my children and my husband... loving what I know of you, and trusting what I do not yet know. Though life may not always be as perfect as it is at this moment, I vow to always keep my love as pure as it is today. I promise to try not to be quick to anger. I promise to keep a sense of humor. I promise to keep the good memories alive and let the bad ones die. I vow to be patient with you and the circumstances in our lives. And I promise to always act in your absence as I would in your presence. Sometimes you see yourself and your body as broken...but in my eyes you are perfect...perfect for me. I promise to encourage your compassion, because in you I see a servant's heart. I promise to nurture your dreams, because they are what make you unique and wonderful. I promise to help shoulder our challenges, because together we will be better than we could be alone. I love you."

Forever and ever amen.


No Megan, nothing fun happened

Yesterday was a big, fat, boring failure as far as Valentine's goes. First of all we were totally snowed in. The picture above is of my dining room window and yes, that's REALLY the snow half-way up my house!!! The cars are buried in...and the cold and snow by itself cracked the front bumper of my van! :( We didn't do anything special or give or get anything special...it was really just another day. Oh well. Sure wish the snow would clear up though just so that the kids could go back to school!


The simplest of all love songs

The best way to start this valentines week of mine would be to write a little something to acknowledge the number one valentine in my life... JESUS. Is there a more beautiful name than that? He is as perfect as I am imperfect. As precious as I am wretched. He is my everything. To him and from him and through him and for him are all things. He is the reason I do everything that I do and the reason I strive to constantly do better. He is omnipotent and sovereign and just. He is perfect and almighty. He is gracious and loving. There just simply aren't enough adjectives for my feelings for him. So I'm posting one of my all-time favorite praise songs on here...it sums it all up.

Phillips, Craig and Dean

You are God in heaven
And here am I on earth
So I'll let my words be few
Jesus, I am so in love with You
And I'll stand in awe of You, Jesus
Yes, I'll stand in awe of You
And I'll let my words be few
Jesus, I am so in love with You
The simplest of all love songs
I want to bring to You
So I'll let my words be few
Jesus, I am so in love with You


How do I love thee?

I've never had a valentine before. Yeah, I've been married twice and had plenty of boyfriends, but never a valentine (at least I didn't think so). The closest I came is when I received that big vase of tulips last year...but that didnt' last long did it? lol That's ok though because it was ALL worth it in the end...I have a GREAT life! Even with all of the kid-struggles and newlywed-trying-to-get-used-t0-each-other struggles, I can't sing from the mountain-top loud enough........

With this new wonderful outlook on my life I've decided to have a wonderful new outlook on valentines day...I want to start taking the opportunity every single year to celebrate every single valentine in my life. My children, my husband, my family, my friends...everyone who has a place in my heart. I want you all to know exactly what you mean to me, how pretty I think you all are, how handsome I think my husband is, how smart and capable you all are, how much you inspire me, how much fun I have with all of you and how much you make me laugh....the whole shebang! I am BLESSED to be surrounded by some of the most AWESOME people in the world!! People I never thought I would even meet from other areas...but I have...and now you're in my world and you're all awesome! :)


Family get-together

Tonight we had a surprise birthday party at BW3's for my friend Ricky (he's the one in the picture above) from work. My friend Valerie, his girlfriend that I also work with, has been planning it for about a month and we've been trying to keep it from him...I'm really surprised no one blew it. He was genuinely surprised.
It was no big deal...no fireworks or crazy drunk people...just a nice get together for someone we all cared about. As I sat there looking around at all the people that were there and was briefly explaining to Scott who was who and where they worked, etc. I realized that I felt so much love for these people...they feel more like my family than my real family....kind of like I do after a girls weekend. I looked from face to face and was thinking about the stories and the histories I know about each and every one of them...and that they know about me. I'm invested them and they in me. They've grieved and celebrated with me. They've cried and rejoiced with me. And it doesn't matter how busy we get, we all come out at the important times to support each other. There were some faces missing which was sad...some permanently, some just for tonight. There were some new faces like Scott's who were welcomed with open arms. We had a really nice, mellow time. We had some wings and some cake, talked for a while, laughed and talked and then headed for home.
As I walked outside I hugged some people goodbye then headed out into the cold night. As I was walking away I heard someone call out to me "LOVE YOU V!" and I called back that I loved them too.... and that made my night because it's so symbolic of my life...it doesn't matter what I'm heading out into or how dark and cold it might feel around me, I will always have someone standing behind me reminding me how much I am loved and accepted. Another example of how good my life is.


On our way

Sometimes in life there are days when the darkest storms are brewing and no matter what direction you look you can't see anything but black. No rest for the very weary...no choice but to keep on pressing on looking for a soft place to fall. Yesterday was one of those days for me...I was in a haze of my own hormones and Scott wasn't in the best mood either...which made us not so great a combination if you know what I mean. It got pretty bad through the early afternoon then we retreated to our separate corners to chill out, pray pray pray and sulk. By evening we were barely speaking, but we had hugged and reminded each other that we love each other and by bedtime we were moving into the healing stages....and then today was a REALLY GOOD DAY.

I don't have days like that very often lately so I have to give praise. lol I have so-so days and not-so-bad days, but today was just such a sweet day to me. The clouds had cleared and the sun of life was shining so mildly and sweetly into our lives. Sometimes fighting that hard with all it's cut and hardness and rudeness has a way of dulling our knives. Once the fighting is over you just don't have anymore in you....what you're left with is humility and regret. Definitely a softer more gentler version of yourself. Hard edges become softer. Loud thundering voices become quieter. Bodies that were so animated with pointing fingers and slamming fists suddenly just want to be held. It's unfortunate that the sweetness of today had to come from the ruins of yesterday....but hopefully it will be used for good and growth. I spent the morning staring into the eyes of my husband and just reminding each other that "yes, I still love you. You're still the one I choose." I thank God for him. Hopefully every day we will continue to grow from the newly weds we are into a mature, healthy relationship. I have no doubt we'll have set backs, but I think we're on our way...I finally have such a good man.
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