My "Mommy Song"....
The other day while driving in the car, this song started playing on my ipod. After a few seconds, I heard a sniffling sound coming from the passenger's seat and I looked over to see my Maddie B.'s face squinted up into a tearful pucker. I giggled and asked her what was wrong and she said, "This is my "Mommy Song" and it always makes me cry!
This took me by surprise and made me giggle again.
She continued, "This summer, every time I heard this song, all I could think of was you and how this song is so you. Especially everything we went through, and when we moved all the way out here and you were trying to give us a new life. It could be so scary, and we didn't know where we were going or anything, but you always took care of us and tried to make everything good for us. You always made sure that no matter where we were, that it looked like our home and felt like our home, and that we always knew where we were going and that we were always taken care of and comfortable. This is just my "Mommy Song" and it makes me cry."
With that, I started crying too. I had no idea she felt that way. That blessed my heart. She gets it. Those are the things I was always going for. Those were the things that I killed myself to do for my kids. That's why I tried to get my house unpacked in a few days instead of a few months, to keep up the traditions, etc. All those unspoken things, all those moments I tortured myself about wondering if I did the right thing moving them out here on my own and then trying my best to make them as comfortable as possible so that it would be as easy on them as possible.... it wasn't lost on them. Kids are usually oblivious... but she got it. She got it. And she gave me a whole song (AND it has a marching band/drum line in it!). My cup runneth over.