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This moment right here is what I want to last.

This moment when everything is so fresh and new...

when I don't care what he's thinking

or if he's telling me the truth

or what his password is

or how he spends his money

or if he'll call me

or if I'll get to spend time with him today.

When he still has absolutely no hold on me.

It's so tempting to keep it in this place,

to lift the walls up and not let him in.

Because THIS place is such a good, pleasant,

UN-painful place to be.

No expectations, not too much of myself on the line.

Pleasant.

But is life really worth it if we only live to be pleasant?

xoxo
♥ veronica