It was one of those nights

I barfed all over one of my favorite people today.

Not literally, just verbally.

I had warned this person earlier in the day that I could feel the waters rising,

and to please just love me through it.

Basically, here comes the fog...see you in about a week.

Unfortunately, I was right.  The waters were rising.

Sometimes I would actually LOVE to be wrong.

Anyways, I hope that this person knows how

very, very much I love and adore them

and would never do something like that on purpose.

I had a complete meltdown

and I'm sure I made them feel bad, guilty, stressed...something bad anyways.

At least they know me well enough to know that this too shall pass

and that this isn't my norm.

Because normally, I have pretty good control over my true feelings

and my brain-mouth connection.

Ambien, alcohol and hormones are about the only times where I

COMPLETELY lose that ability.

That is when all of the raw, unpolished, nasty, jagged stuff comes out.

:(

So I need to officially say.....

I'm so sorry.

I love you.

Please forgive me.

"I" will be back in a few days.

Please just love me through it.