So sad....

Everytime I watch "Teen Mom",

my heart breaks in two for Amber.

Just knowing that I already know the outcome for her,

and that she ended up where she ended up.

The knowledge that this girl who was trying so hard to get better

and to fight her demons,

and who loved her little girl so much,

became so hopeless that she gave up the fight and thought

that it would be easier to say 

just go ahead and lock me up for five whole years 

because she knew that five years in prison and away from her daughter

would be easier than fighting the battle against depression and substance.

My heart is broken for her.

If you're a mother, you know how strong your love is for your child,

and if you're willing to give up five entire years away from your little girl

after fighting and fighting and fighting,

then the battle must be really rough.

You must really know that you're not going to make it out alive.

I hear a lot of judgement go out against her.

Hate her all you want.

I have compassion for her.

I'm praying for you Amber.

Take this time to get better.

Come home whole,

for yourself and for Leah.

God bless you.

lurve you, xoxo v.