1.31.2009

A real slice

Needless to say, today was SO MUCH better than last night. Sleep does wonders doesn't it? Last night was rough. But today I feel much more myself again. I don't stay mad for long. Sometimes I wish I did at least a little longer, but this is the way God made me..sooooo. Anyways, I had a nice quiet day. My cable got shut off (oops!), so there wasn't any tv. I played around with some music on my laptop and am thinking about working on my book a little. Took an extra long shower and now that everything has been properly washed, exfoliated, shaved and moisturized, I'm kind of at a loss for things to do. It's kind of refreshing to have this kind of boredome though. No measuring the atmosphere inside these four walls on a crazy scale and no neurotically making sure that anything he can use up or steal has been hidden or put away. Just relaxation. That's priceless. I'd like to say it was good while it lasted but.... well, just but. It's been a real slice, but I have to be normal now.


1.30.2009

Let freedom ring

Tonight's a rough night. The kids are at a friend's house spending the night so I don't really have to be okay for their sake and I'm beginning to melt down just a little bit. I went and had dinner with the girls at Panera's and didn't even really enjoy the food (and I love it there). Allison called me as I was pulling in the driveway to ask me if I was okay because she could tell that something was wrong and I couldn't even really talk because I was starting to cry. I'm not missing him, I'm missing the idea of him. I'm sad that this entire waste of my time and my life has happened and I'm pissed at him for doing this but I think even more than that I'm pissed at myself for doing this AGAIN. It's so much easier to just stay alone and keep the walls up. Screw him, screw this and screw life. The biggest temptation I'm facing tonight is walking over to Taggarts and drowning my sorrows. Oh, and I took my wedding rings off. Let freedom ring.


Survey

1. What time did you get up this morning?
9:30am
2. Diamonds or pearls
Depends on the outfit
3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema?
Fireproof
4. What is your favorite TV show?
Biggest Loser; American Idol--too many
5. What do you usually have for breakfast?
cereal. Or oatmeal and hot tea
6. What is your middle name?
Jeanne
7. What food do you dislike?
liver
8. What is your favorite CD at moment?
Circus (Britney Spears), Funhouse (Pink)
9. What kind of car do you drive?
Dodge Caravan
10. Favorite song right now?
Untouched by The Veronicas
11. What characteristic do you despise?
Rude, Cocky, conceited
12. Favorite item of clothing?
my gap sweatshirt that is full of holes and covered in paint stains---and seems to be missing! :(
13. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go?
Fiji, Thailand--somewhere tropical and exotic
14 . Favorite brand of clothing?
Brand? Wats that?? lol
15. Where would you retire to?
Wherever the person I love is
16. What was your most recent memorable birthday?

All of them have been memorable

17. Favorite sport to watch?
None really
18. Main ringer on your cell phone?
Untouched by The Veronicas
19. Listening to right now?
You by Evanescence
20. When is your birthday?
1/7/1973
21. Are you a morning person or a night person?
Night person
22. What is your shoe size?
8 1/2
23. Pets?
3 fish: sunkist, sprite & oreo
24. Any new and exciting news you ' d like to share with us?
I'm single as of this week. Sad, but relieving.
25. What did you want to be when you were little?
Linda Rondstadt!
26. How are you today?
Okay. LAZY and a little bored, but okay.
27. What is your favorite candy?
Circus Peanuts
28. What is your favorite flower?
Tulips, gardenias, wildflowers, orange or green roses (not red or yellow)
29. What is a day on the calendar you are looking forward to?
The day I have money in the bank. Other than that, nothing specific because I have no life.
30. Who'd you talk to on the phone today?
Collin, Rachel, Allison, my landlord , the gas co. & the electrician
31. Plans for tonight?
Meeting the girls at Panera's for dinner
32. What was the last thing you ate?
Marcos cheesy bread & diet coke
33. Do you wish on stars?
No, maybe I should
34. If you were a crayon, what color would you be?
Pink
35. How is the weather right now?
Cold & icy
36. The first person you spoke to on the phone today?

My landlord
37. Favorite soft drink?
Diet Coke!
38. Favorite restaurant?
Olive Garden or Red Lobster -- I'm easy to please
39. Real hair color?
Black/ Dk brown
40. What was your favorite toy as a child?
Barbie Dolls
41. Summer or winter?
Summer
42. Hugs or kisses
One then the other!
43. Chocolate or Vanilla?
Chocolate
44. Coffee or tea?
Tea
45. Are you happy?
happy is such a relative term
46.When was the last time you cried?
This morning on the phone. I was talking about a few things that choked me up a little.
7. What is under your bed?
Haha! Wouldn't you like to know!
48. What did you do last night?
Watched tv with my family (American Idol and Biggest Loser)
49. What are you afraid of ?
Never accomplishing what I'm supposed to in life because I'm too afraid to try.
50. Salty or sweet?
Sweet
51. How many keys on your key ring?
Not many. Two or three.
52. How many years at your current job?
hahahahaha!
53. Favorite day of the week?
Saturday
54. How many towns have you lived in?
7
55. Do you make friends easily?
depends on the person, but usually
56. Do you miss someone right now?
Absolutely
57. Last text you sent?
"Printed!"



1.29.2009

Getting settled

I'm home. I had a good evening with my girls and relaxing in my peaceful house. I spent some time on the phone and now I'm catching up with the DVR'd shows I missed. Tonight life is good and I feel like I can finally exhale.

1.28.2009

We're off to see the blizzard: 2009 aka To be held


I was really hoping that I wasn't going to have to post a blog to my "We're off to see the blizzard" series this year, but alas here I am. However, I have to say that as bad as this storm was, I know it's not as bad as it could be and for that I'm grateful.

What I have realized though, is that even though my parents (who are stuck in Dayton watching my kids) probably aren't happy to hear this, I think this blizzard could very possibly be one of the best things to happen to me in a long time.

One of my amazing bff's and his wife graciously gifted me a hotel room last night, which I thought was one of the sweetest things...but I was even more surprised to find out this morning that they had given it to me for not one, but TWO nights because the weather was so bad. My jaw kind of dropped as I realized that I didn't have to worry about making the scary drive back to Dayton in this horrible weather. With that, I said a grateful prayer, turned my ringer off and went back to bed where I took a five-hour long nap--something that is unheard of for me. I have trouble sleeping that long at night, let-alone during the day. Collin (my awesome friend) said that it was my no-more-stress nap, and I think he's right. My body fell into some sort of other zone and I slept like there was no tomorrow.

Like I was saying, this stay has been good for me for more reasons than one. I don't know that I've ever had time alone like this. Seriously. I always have somewhere to be or someone around and have never had it be just me. Even more than that, with this blizzard, it was a kind of forced isolation so that I pretty much HAD to spend time alone and not run to avoid the silence by filling it up with friends, conversation or distraction. Last night, I sent someone a message that said, "I just had my first 'I'm alone' moment--I had to go get ice from the ice machine on my own. I don't think I've ever had to do that before."

I probably could've gone out and cleaned the snow off of my van and found something to do, but I think this time alone would be more beneficial to me than anything else right now. Every once in a while, I turn on the tv to see if there's anything going on but promptly turn it right back off because I'm just not interested. I've listened to a handful of songs on a loop for the past 24 hours and sat in the quiet a lot. I've spent a lot of time in the blackberry prayer pose in order to keep friends and family updated. I have a big sore spot/bruise on the back of my head from laying in a hot bubble bath for so long. I've caught up on a few blogs on my blogroll and I've done a lot of thanking God for being as amazing as he is.

That's really the thing that my heart has spent the most time doing, actually. Everyone wants to check and make sure I'm alright--and THANK YOU SO MUCH! Really, I have the best friends and I never fail to be surprised at the generosity of spirit of the people that I have chosen to surround myself with (and more importantly, that have chosen ME to be around them!). But, when I even begin to think about feeling sorry for myself, I think about everything going on in the world, or read on someone's facebook status that a family who's little girl was just diagnosed with some horrible disease needs prayer, I can't help but wondering what in the world I have to complain about. Nothing. Absolutely nothing. Even on my worst days I have a sweet life. And I'm talking sweetness that can't be measured.... the smiling faces of my beautiful girls, the hug of my son who misses me, a roof over my head and the promise of a new job waiting for me. Kind heartedness of friends and family, catching up with old friends over a late-night dinner at Denny's, smiling, laughter, inside jokes, late-night scrabble games, BLISS.

No, I have no reason to complain. I know what it means to be held, and it's a beautiful thing. My life is and will continue to be sweet simply because it is the sum-total of the relationships I have. From long-lost friends on facebook, to my faithful blog readers, to old friends that know me inside and out and love me just the same. From family to new friends to the most important relationships I have--my kids and my God. All of those factored into the equation add up to a pretty staggering sum and leave me with only one conclusion... I am blessed beyond all measure and I'm so happy to be alive yet another day to try and give something back. Thank you Lord for letting me know what it means to be held.









Held
by
Natalie Grant

Crap!



The view from my hotel room last night when it started snowing:




ANNNNND this morning when I woke up. CRAP. I know it doesn't look like much, but it is...and it's still coming down. These pictures don't do it justice.




1.27.2009

You never let go

Quiet moment,
just my God and me
Humbly on my knees
thanking him for his love and faithfulness.
Prayers for my still-husband.
Please take care of him Lord,
I hear back, "you know I will."
I respond, "I do."
Thank you Lord for being faithful
and never letting go.









You Never Let Go
by
The David Crowder Band

The end of an error

It's done. I feel kind of crappy but not nearly as crappy as if I'd had to leave him standing on a street corner, like I thought I may have to. He's in jail for the next 28 days and would have gotten 40 days if he didn't agree to have no contact with me.

Even through speaking to the judge, he had this confident/I can't be touched attitude. Lord knows that it wasn't my intention to trash-talk him and have him thrown in jail, but I did think it was time to tell my side of the story and make sure the judge understood exactly what hell I've been through in just the last year alone. Yes, Scott was doing better in the past week or so...but hello? A week? No, today was about way more than a freakin' week. And I have been through enough.

The judge remembered us and knew immediately when he saw Scott who he was and then let me know that he remembered me too. He asked me to share with him what has been going on for the past year and what I had to say about things and the whole time I was telling him, Scott stood behind me saying, "thanks a lot! thanks for throwing me under the bus! thanks a lot!" The judge said that even though he thought I was going out on a limb last year by being willing to help Scott and give him a year to prove himself, he was very "inspired" by it and my "hope springs eternal" attitude and the way that I was willing to work on my marriage instead of just walking away from it. He gave me a long speech about how I had also inspired him to look at things a little differently this year and he has often wondered how things were going for us. He then reminded Scott of how last year he told him that he was lucky to have a woman like me standing by his side and being so supportive and he was angry that he took advantage of me as well as the courts by not being compliant with even one area of his probation or treatment.

He then told him that he had left him with no option but to reinstate his 40 days of jail starting immediately. Scott started crying and yelling, "No! Please don't put me in jail! I don't want to go to jail!" as the bailiff hauled him out. The judge had motioned for me to stay and after Scott was out of the room, he said "I had him drug out like that mostly for effect. I want it burned into his mind that I won't hesitate to throw those cuffs on him and lock him up if he doesn't comply. However, I'm not sure that I'm going to give him the full 40 days, I'm considering lowering it if he will agree to have no contact with you. What do you say about that?" I told him that sounded like a good idea and he said, "Then I want you to get your things and go before I bring him back out to talk t him. This is me helping you out of this. Your job here is done, you've done your work. Now go have a good life. He won't bother you anymore." I turned back to look at the judge and mouthed "Thank you so much" to him and he said, "You're welcome Ms. Baum. Keep that hope alive."

I felt bad that he had to be locked up, but he really needs to learn the consequences so that he can finally be productive. It will also do him good to have meds in his system for an entire month before he's released.

I finally feel like I can exhale. A 300 pound weight has been lifted from my chest and my life and while I will always love him, this just isn't a life that I can live. This may be his life, but it isn't mine. And it's amazing to me that even with just meeting me for a few minutes a year ago, that judge had me so pegged...hope springs eternal...those three words can definitely be used to sum me up. No matter what I've been through in my life, I still have this inherent seed of hope that is rooted so deeply in my spirit that nothing has been able to crush. I have seen a lot of darkness and yet have still come through on the other side with this wild hope that everything will be alright.......















Wild Hope
by
Mandy Moore


1.26.2009

Nothing like a cheap motel to remind me of all the great things I'm giving up

Today went okay. We arrived in Cleveland quicker than we thought (who knew manic people drove so fast?) and so went to scotts new place to move his things in. It's disgustingly filthy but HUGE. I don't feel sorry for him at all! Pardon my language, but that bitch got a 3 bedroom apartment that's bigger than the main floor of my house. AND it's partially furnished. So, whatever dude--you're not hurting any.

We later went over to see my son and was so glad I did because I miss him so much. He had made us dinner (chicken parm) and we scarfed that down then decided to head to Applebees for dessert. I thought I was ordering this huge caramel apple yummy thingy and ended up accidentally ordering a little dessert in a shot glass for $1.99. *sigh* Yeah, cheaper but NOT good in the way of comfort food.

I decided to go shell out the little bit of cash for a cheap motel room so that I could crash in peace and use the wi-fi. My exhusband doesn't have internet right now and also had some friends over for drinking tonight and that's not exactly where I want to be. So here I sit. In a filthy room in motel 6 and Scott is getting on my nerves in the worst way. I would love to kick him out in the snow, but will just pray that he goes to sleep quickly instead. Tomorrow is court (1:30) and then I will take him back to his place and then take off. Not sure if I'm heading home or what I will be doing, but I know I'm not staying there. It is N-A-S-T-Y. I took a picture of the bathtub but am too skeeved out to put it on here. Lets just say EWWWWWW. I just sent Scott up to the store to buy a travel-sized shampoo, conditioner & body wash with explicit instructions to not spend much money because this is the last cash I have. What does he do? He comes back with ONE DOLLAR in change for me and full-sized bottles of everything saying, "Kmart doesn't sell travel sized things...I'll just keep these if you don't want them." Um, NO. Bull crap they don't sell them and how freakin' convenient that you'll keep them. I don't think so. I'm done supporting you.

Lets get this over with

Well, I got all of 2-3 hours of freakin' sleep this morning, which means that I am feeling rather hateful and impatient. Top that all off with the fact that this wonderful man drank an entire pot of coffee this morning and is now M-A-N-I-C, shaking and bouncing off the walls and what you have is one girl who is ready to get this freaking show over with.

I wish I could just snap my fingers and have this all done and tucked away, but know that I have a few long days ahead of me. My parents are supposed to arrive in town between 1 & 2 to stay with the kids (pray for their safety because the roads aren't all that great). After I show my mom how to get to the kids school and pick them up, we'll say goodbye to everyone and hit the road. Lord willing, the roads won't be too bad for us either. I'm anticipating being on the road around 4'ish, which means we'll roll into Cleveland around 8. I promised Darren (my son who is up there with his Dad for now) that we would spend the night with him. He wants to make me dinner and spend time with mom. We will need to leave for a while sometime after dinner though so that we can take Scott's things over to his new place. I told him that we were doing it tonight because if they put him in jail tomorrow, I'm not going to be stressing out about getting his crap moved by myself.

After spending the night with D. (I know, some think it's hillarious that I'm spending the night at my ex-husbands house with my soon-to-be ex-husband--but I actually get along pretty well with the other one), tomorrow will be full of errand running (get copy of birth certificate, renew license plates, etc.) then we have to be in court at 1:30. I have no idea what will happen at that time. Scott is thinking they'll just give him a stern talking to and let him go, at which time he wants me to come back to his new place and help him get settled, spending one last romantic night together. Um, riiiiiight. I, as usual, think he's crazy. IF he's not in jail, and that's a big if, I don't know that I will have any desire to stay with him in this place. Especially not the way he's acting right now. I want this done and over. I can't STAND being in frickin' limbo like this. I may spend the night at a family members house before coming back home on Wednesday. I haven't been able to get ahold of anyone yet so I'm not sure. Oh for the carefree times of two months ago when I could actually afford a decent rental car to drive up there in AND a hotel with all the free wi-fi I could want. *sigh*

Separation eve

I don't know why I'm surprised that I'm awake. I tried to go to bed a few hours ago, but I just lay there with my mind racing and thinking about how hungry I am. I'm back on prednisone because with being sick for the past three weeks and all the stress, my lupus is acting up...and the prednisone makes me feel like I'm starving to death. So I got up and ate a bologna sandwich, which is kind of funny because I can't remember the last time I had one of those, but tonight I was craving it like crazy.

I was also having trouble laying there because I was getting depressed knowing that this would be the last night I would share my bed with my husband. I could feel him warm behind me and hear him breathing and the sadness was almost overwhelming. All of his things are packed and the van is loaded. My parents are supposed to arrive in town around 1:00 to stay with the kids for a few days and then we'll be off. Pray for a safe journey. Pray for peace and understanding. Pray for healing and new beginnings. Just pray.

1.25.2009

Capricorn

My horoscope for tomorrow:

Some say sadness and happiness are two sides of one coin. Others make much the same point about problems and solutions. They argue that whenever you have one, you are never far from the other. What goes up must come down etc. You can no more live a life of total security, than you can expect the Sun to rise yet never set. Things change. That's their nature. We worry about change. That's our nature. The change happening now helps you overcome one difficulty, but creates another. But it is still well worthwhile.



Packing up

Spending time splitting up pots and pans, towels and sheets. I keep the DVD player and he can take the air mattress. Things are peaceful though and maybe even a little upbeat. Lets hope they stay that way.

1.24.2009

Thank you

Well, God is good! Let me tell you about some of the amazing things he has done in the past few days. First, I can finally share a little bit about what's been going on.

Most of you are all aware of the mess that has been my marriage. You're also all familiar with the struggle that I have had with what to do about it. I want to have a marriage that is capable of being worked on and stuck through, but I know that it is just pointless. There is just too much. Scott has pretty severe bipolar disorder and even on the best days, things are unstable. Because of all this, things have been on some thin ice for quite some time. Last month I had actually kicked him out and let him come back a few weeks later after he got pretty sick and because I thought I would be kind for Christmas. I had every hope that he would be convinced of the seriousness of the situation and would really change for the better. Well, I wanted to have hope. Really, I didn't figure it would work out, but was willing to give him a month or so to find out.

Well, about a week and a half ago or so, I found out that he had done something really horrible. I won't go into it, but I was furious. He continues to this day to deny he did this thing, but the proof is overwhelming. So with that alone, he was bound for divorce court, but that night I also happened to discover a huge, empty bottle of vicodin in his trashcan. He has been forbidden (by me, his psychiatrist and the courts) to take ANY pain meds because of how manic and sick they make him. With just one vicodin or percocet, he will wreak havoc on our family and usually ends up in the hospital. Well, this explains why he'd been so out of hand and sick recently. I had even confronted him about it and he denied (of course) having taken anything he shouldn't be taking. But yet, he just keeps on finding new pain doctors and getting perscriptions for pain pills behind my back. He has been told multiple times that if he ever does this again that he would instantly be out of the house...and he's done it twice in the past few months.

So, after finding this, I tell him that he needs to pack his things and go. HE REFUSES. He gets nasty and says, "I'm not going anywhere and you can't make me. What are you going to do? Call the police? I haven't touched you or anything, they won't make me leave." I was torn up because he was right. I needed this unstable force out of my home and yet I felt powerless to do anything about it. So I decided to pull my trump card.

Last year when he became so unstable that he trashed the house and then tried to kill himself twice, he was placed on probation. I let his probation officer know everything that Scott has been up to and they issued a summons for him to appear before the judge on Tuesday. I have to drive him up there (four hours away) and make my case before the judge. Chances are he will get a little jail time. This was definitely NOT my intention, but he needs some consequences and I need him out of my house. As much as I hated it, I knew that if they put him in jail, I was going to leave him there and not come back for him. In the state he's in, he would have a very difficult time making it back here and most likely would have to stay right where he is. My concern, though was mostly what would happen if they didn't put him in jail?

This HAUNTED me for days and I have been so distraught about this. When I say he has no one but me, I'm not kidding. He doesn't have even one family member that will take his call and not one friend. He literally has no one. So I knew that if I left him, he would feel desperate and not want to let me go and I was afraid of what would happen. So, I knew that in order to break free, I was literally going to have to leave him somewhere. Run when he wasn't looking or pretend to go to the bathroom and not come back. I can't even put into words how much the thought of this was tearing me up inside. It's not in my nature to be deceitful like this and and I felt so horrible about the thought of abandoning him with absolutely nothing and no one in a cold Cleveland winter. I was going to do it if I had to, but it was going to be one of the hardest things I've ever had to do.

Well, fast-forward to yesterday. The night before I had written my last post, which was basically a prayer begging God for his mercy with this situation. I just did not know how I was going to be able to do this and was begging God to fix it....and because our God is such a faithful, merciful God...he fixed it. :)

Yesterday morning I woke up kind of cranky because the phone had been ringing off the hook all morning and I went out to ask Scott who in the world he had calling all morning. He said that after thinking about it, he heard the way I was feeling and wanted to give me some space to work on things like I had asked and was going to respect my wishes. THEN he says that not one, but TWO of his friends had finally called him back for the first time in a few years and agreed to give him a place to stay and a car to use until he gets on his feet! Now, ask me if I believe he'll ever actually get on his feet and I'll say probably not. But I do know that it won't be my problem anymore. It's his. He's responsible for his own life and if he screws his friends over, that's on him. BUT, God not only changed his heart so that I don't have to be dishonest, but he also provided so I don't feel guilty about leaving him homeless.

I can't tell you the weight that is lifted off of my shoulders and how much lighter I feel. I still feel sad about the fact that my marriage has failed, but I am so much more peaceful that this can happen calmly and somewhat amicably. Thank you so much Lord for hearing my cries. Thank you a hundred times over. Thank you.

1.23.2009

A spilling heart

This week is good. But times, in general, are bad. A girl has decisions to be made. Hard, hard decisions. Harder than anyone is supposed to make. I know what needs to be done in theory, but the logistics are not sorted out. My mind is pregnant with details and choose-your-own-adventure endings. Five days from now my life will most likely be very different. I'm praying for mercy with an impossible decision. Lord, I hear you and I know it's the right thing to do...but it can go one of two ways...please Lord, please be merciful to me and don't make me have to take the hard path. This impossible man is your son Lord, not mine. You take care of him. Please don't make me have to leave him standing there helpless. Penniless. Hopeless. It's not the larger, more abstract idea of leaving him that is haunting me, although it does break my heart. No, it's the more immediate, literal act of actually leaving him somewhere...and never coming back. That's going to be the only way to get out of this and my heart breaks with the knowledge that I'm facing this decision. Lord, there is another way and we both know what it is...please let that way happen. It will be so much easier for each of us. The righteous cry and the Lord heareth.... that's what you promised and I'm falling on my face before you with a spilled heart, please help. Five more days and a girl will be alone again. And she wept.

1.22.2009

Life today

I know I've been a little MIA lately and that's because I've had a lot on my mind and plate. Next week I promise I'll have more updates for you, but frankly am a little afraid to jynx myself by talking about it too soon.

To sum up some of the good things that have happened though, I have a decent job lead. A head-hunter contacted me regarding a government position with a 1-year contract and possibility to expand up to four years. I'm waiting on some paperwork in the mail right now. YAY! In the meantime, I had a couple of amazing surprises in the way of my needs being met. It never fails to surprise me the cool and unexpected ways that God provides for his own. Today I got another unexpected and so much appreciated surprise in my email that relieved a huge financial worry for the coming month. Thank you so much Lord. :)

In other news, everyone here is doing well. I'm still coughing and most of the time don't have much of a voice still. I hope it goes away soon because I'm getting really tired of being afraid that I'm going to pee my pants with each huge coughing spell. Seriously.

I see the moon




This is the song I've sang
to my babies since the day they were born
and we still sing to each other to this day.
Mommy loves you guys. :)



1.21.2009

New layout

Many of my readers were having issues with my page taking too long to load, so I decided to change the layout to something more basic and see if that helps with load time. I know it's more plain than some of you prefer, but how do you like it? I'm actually kind of fond of it. It's very me.

1.20.2009

The funniest thing I've read lately

I just had to share a conversation I had through my status on facebook tonight. Everytime I read it it makes me laugh. I love someone who will volley with me like this. It's kind of long and retarded, but check out how this thing evolves. Hope you giggle!


MY STATUS:
Veronica can't find the remote! 11:40pm


Rick S Hershey at 11:44pm January 19 via Facebook Mobile
Its in the couch. . yes it is . .look again . . just do it

Veronicaat 11:45pm January 19
okay, i'm looking...

Veronica at 11:46pm January 19
It was in the recliner! Found it!

Rick S Hershey at 11:47pm January 19 via Facebook Mobile
My crystal ball was a little fuzzy. . couch . . recliner . . sorry

Veronica at 11:52pm January 19
no, close enough...without your help I would have never found it! You're amazing! :) Are you buying that?

Rick S Hershey at 11:55pm January 19 via Facebook Mobile
Sounds great. . but NO IM BROKE. . :)

Rick S Hershey at 12:01am January 20 via Facebook Mobile
Ok what name were you under in high school because I cant find you in the yearbook. .

Veronica at 12:02am January 20
Veronica. The red 1988 yearbook. I had to walk to school in the rain that day so my hair was flat--which was a TRAGEDY in 1988.

Rick S Hershey at 12:04am January 20 via Facebook Mobile
But I thought you graduated in 90 from EHS

Veronica  at 12:05am January 20
no, i said i went to west for all but 10th. i was only at EHS for 10th

Rick S Hershey at 12:09am January 20 via Facebook Mobile
Ok so you graduated from west in 90. . with Kim Gochenour and the twins Candace and ?

Veronica  at 12:10am January 20
Yep. and a slew of other people. :)

Rick S Hershey at 12:11am January 20 via Facebook Mobile
Well now I feel like less of an idiot. . I swear I knew everyone in our class. . . I tried to know everyone in our class. . do you remember me . . probably not if you were only there for a year

Veronica at 12:14am January 20
I do remember you actually, but vaguely; I can't remember from where. I think maybe we had a class together.

Rick S Hershey at 12:19am January 20 via Facebook Mobile
Who were you teachers in 10th grade. It wasnt math class. . English I had Mrs Donnelley did you take Spanish Mrs Shelar for Biology

Rick S Hershey at 12:20am January 20 via Facebook Mobile
Who were your friends. .G want to figure this out. . it will drive me crazy. . probably what Im doing to you

Veronica  at 12:21am January 20
nope. none of those. why wasnt it math class? maybe it was just a study hall? i also had typing and gym class

Rick S Hershey at 12:23am January 20 via Facebook Mobile
I was the only sophomore in my math class everyone else were jrs and seniors. . couldve been any of the others and we would never figure that out. .

Rick S Hershey at 12:25am January 20 via Facebook Mobile
I give up. . glad Im getting to know you now. .

Veronica at 12:29am January 20
um, i hung out a lot with my family because i didn't know many people. I had a ton of acquaintances but not many friends there. Michelle Bowers & Dewey Bogle, Aubrey Thompson, julie krage. aubrey was my best friend. i dated tony colella for a few days. lol

Veronica at 12:30am January 20
i'm glad too. :)

Rick S Hershey at 12:34am January 20 via Facebook Mobile
Ive known all THE Krages since I was 4 years old and I know michelle and aubrey too. . anyways. . not sure If I know your LONGTIME BOYFRIEND

Veronica  at 12:35am January 20
haha yeah, we set a record huh?

Veronica at 12:38am January 20
hey, do you know what happened to Aubrey? I haven't been able to find her. I haven't seen her since around 92 or so after she had the baby, etc.

Rick S Hershey at 12:39am January 20 via Facebook Mobile
Sounds like it but I was never a single guy in school. . from kindergarten on. . I used all my MOJO up from then to college. . well most of it :)

Rick S Hershey at 12:44am January 20 via Facebook Mobile
I dont know. . Ive moved around alot for work so its been harder keeping up with alot of people. . Im really trying to get everyone together since I was a class officer and I love it when everyone is together its in my nature. . Ive been told I was our school ambassador. . for all THE classes. .cant we ALL JUST GET ALONG :)

Veronica at 12:45am January 20
You are a true hero Mr. Hershey

Rick S Hershey at 12:48am January 20 via Facebook Mobile
Why are you making fun of me its NOT nice

Rick S Hershey at 12:48am January 20 via Facebook Mobile
Im just saying

Veronica  at 12:49am January 20
:P

Rick S Hershey at 12:50am January 20 via Facebook Mobile
:(

Veronica at 12:51am January 20
i hate when we fight. lets kiss and make up.

Rick S Hershey at 12:53am January 20 via Facebook Mobile
How about a big HERSHEY KISS

Veronicaat 12:54am January 20
Now we're talkin!

Rick S Hershey at 12:55am January 20 via Facebook Mobile
Well PUCKER UP

Veronica at 12:56am January 20
MUAH!!!

Rick S Hershey at 12:57am January 20 via Facebook Mobile
Ok feeling much more loved now. .

Veronica at 12:58am January 20
Good. :) Now lets snuggle and watch a movie or something. It's late.

Rick S Hershey at 1:00am January 20 via Facebook Mobile
Ok. . what movie sounds good. .

Veronica  at 1:01am January 20
You pick so I can make it up to you. But you have to get the lights because I don't feel like getting up.

Rick S Hershey at 1:05am January 20 via Facebook Mobile
I just got comfortable. .but of course Ill get up. . lets see. .romantic comedy. . I know make fun of me

Veronica at 1:06am January 20
nope, sounds great. we're totally in sync.

Rick S Hershey at 1:09am January 20 via Facebook Mobile
Well im thinking Failure to launch, how to lose a guy in 10 days ,family stone , two weeks notice, sweet home alabama

Veronica  at 1:10am January 20
love family stone! lets do that one

Veronica at 1:10am January 20
don't be mad if i fall asleep.

Rick S Hershey at 1:11am January 20 via Facebook Mobile
What would you like to drink. . hot chocolate, cold zero , oj milk or water

Veronica  at 1:12am January 20
coke zero. do you want a blanket? are you cold?

Rick S Hershey at 1:12am January 20 via Facebook Mobile
Never get mad about falling asleep sometimes nice falling asleep watching a movie with someone. . can always watch it later

Rick S Hershey at 1:14am January 20 via Facebook Mobile
Already have the super soft velor feeling blanket its my favorite and its really big. .relax

Veronicaat 1:16am January 20
good. ok lets relax and watch.

Rick S Hershey at 1:18am January 20 via Facebook Mobile
Any snacks. . I can make popcorn, theres chips. . Cheddar and sour cream. . yogurt, fruit ice cream. . even though its cold

Veronica  at 1:19am January 20
nope, i have ice cream. i'm good. you get what you want.

Rick S Hershey at 1:20am January 20 via Facebook Mobile
Im excited love this movie . . everytime

Veronica  at 1:21am January 20
I'm already getting sleepy. Will you rub my hair?

Rick S Hershey at 1:23am January 20 via Facebook Mobile
Of course

Rick S Hershey at 1:24am January 20 via Facebook Mobile
Of course . . its ok just go to sleep Ill stay awake until you do. goodnight

Veronica  at 1:24am January 20
thanks

Rick S Hershey at 1:25am January 20 via Facebook Mobile
aerosmith . . . dont wanna miss a thing

Veronica at 1:26am January 20
*sleeping quietly*

Rick S Hershey at 1:28am January 20 via Facebook Mobile
Hearing you breath . .


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